Watermelaina

I'm no longer  guilty about my lack of consistency on here.  I know that I have been actually waiting for some free time to write and it's the thought that counts. Small Unimportant Update: I am sick, I might be cursed, I might be dying. Just in case these are my last days, I just want my driving instructor to know that he needs to calm down. He's always telling me, the unbothered queen, to calm down, but no one is as angry in their core as he is. I'm just trying to have a good day and yet I have paid this man to be negative in my presence for an hour, 3 days a week. This must be what my mom meant by unwise spending decisions. Other, even less important news: I re-pierced my ears for the third time, aka the charm. So far so good, as usual. I won't truly know if I'm really committed to this mutilation until about the 6 month mark. I'm feeling optimistic this time around. I have a bit of confidence from the fact that I've stuck with my locs for ...

I need to leave this house ASAP. I dunno where I'll go but I have to go somewhere. I feel like i'm stifling right now. Please pick up your phone 

It's the seventh month of the year. Seven is my lucky number so i'm feeling pretty confident about it. I'm feeling very determined and ready for new experiences. However, with challenges comes anxiety. And today especially, i'm having a hard time just keeping a lid on it. I really want to just go home because I feel very alone right now. I'm not sure i'm ready to do this. This isn't my space. I can't be here alone. I don't feel safe or welcomed. Why am I somewhere where I feel like I have to hide? That's crazy. That being said, I generally feel unwelcome at most places so this might just be a me problem. Also, I don't think I can ever go back to non-touchscreen devices. I feel so weird using a mouse now. This reminds me of a scene from one of the avengers movies where tony is using the SHIELD computers and he says "How does Fury see any of these screens?" And the assistant replies "... He turns" I dunno if t...