Kekko desu

 I recently had a huge life change but I'm not sure if I hate it or if I'm just still adjusting. 

I don't feel like I have anywhere to be grounded anymore. 


I wrote this on November 28th 2021. This was the beginnings of me realizing that living in Indianapolis was going to be a challenge to conquer. I think I did it in the end. I didn't get what I wanted but I most likely got what I needed. I'm no longer in that city or that country but I will cherish it like home because I became more of the person I want to be in that city. 

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